sam-smithBritish soul singer Sam Smith took home the Oscar for best original song at the 88th Annual Academy Awards on Sunday, but wasn’t overly thrilled by his performance on the Oscar stage that night.

While the singer-songwriter was most remembered that night for his acceptance speech, which caused a little bit of controversy, the first-time Oscar winner opened up about how forgettable he wished his singing performance was.

During an interview with BBC radio station 5 following his victory, Smith said performing the “Spectre” theme song “Writing’s on the Wall,” was a moment he would like to forget.

“It was the worst moment of my life,” Smith said. “Singing was horrible. I hated every minute of it, I was so nervous.”

While Smith credited nerves as being the reason for his self-described lackluster performance, he did insert some humor. Now that he has won multiple Grammys and now an Oscar, Smith joked that he is “going to retire” because there is nowhere to go but down.

His fans certainly hope that is not true!

h/t Billboard